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apparentopposite After a day of eating my feelings and trying to put off the inevitable, i decided to make this post. I know a lot of you guys have already made posts about this, but i just couldn't bring myself to read them all, so i apologise if i basically repeat what you've said.
The saddest thing about all of this i think, is that we kind of all knew that MCR were going to end, or at least go on hiatus for a while. But (idk about you guys, but at least i felt that) no one was really expecting this. I thought that Gerard was going to focus on comic books for a while, Frank and Dewees were doing Death Spells, Mikey was (hopefully) going to sort his relationships out and Ray was going to carry on being a social enigma (srsly, he never tells us what he's doing). I know they are all doing those things and i'm happy for them, but to know that they're *never* going to be a band again. It's just depressing. (Also as someone who has never seen them live, i am particularly saddened by this). And i am aware they could reunite in 10 years, but it won't be the same.
I've been worrying about the fandom all day. I know that you guys will still continue to be in this fandom, (or at least i hope you will) the FOB hiatus has shown me how persistently fannish you all are. :) But i can't help but feel like after a month or two some of you won't want to be here anymore. And this scares me more than you know; i just got here. After two years i finally plucked up the courage to talk to all of you lovely people, and i don't want that to go to waste.
This news will most likely hit my creativity hard in terms of writing, but i haven't been writing much anyway, so it's pretty much a moot point. I'm just not ready for this; for such a change in fandom. I'm still struggling through irl things at the moment and for my main and (pretty much) only fandom to get hit as hard as this; it's going to be pretty horrible.
But as ever we're all going through this together. I have hugs for all of you if you need them and we'll all be fine if we keep going.
So, yeah. Those are my thoughts. Now i'm going to eat a plate of garlic bread whilst my parents sing drunkenly to Barry White downstairs. What is my life?
xoxo
The saddest thing about all of this i think, is that we kind of all knew that MCR were going to end, or at least go on hiatus for a while. But (idk about you guys, but at least i felt that) no one was really expecting this. I thought that Gerard was going to focus on comic books for a while, Frank and Dewees were doing Death Spells, Mikey was (hopefully) going to sort his relationships out and Ray was going to carry on being a social enigma (srsly, he never tells us what he's doing). I know they are all doing those things and i'm happy for them, but to know that they're *never* going to be a band again. It's just depressing. (Also as someone who has never seen them live, i am particularly saddened by this). And i am aware they could reunite in 10 years, but it won't be the same.
I've been worrying about the fandom all day. I know that you guys will still continue to be in this fandom, (or at least i hope you will) the FOB hiatus has shown me how persistently fannish you all are. :) But i can't help but feel like after a month or two some of you won't want to be here anymore. And this scares me more than you know; i just got here. After two years i finally plucked up the courage to talk to all of you lovely people, and i don't want that to go to waste.
This news will most likely hit my creativity hard in terms of writing, but i haven't been writing much anyway, so it's pretty much a moot point. I'm just not ready for this; for such a change in fandom. I'm still struggling through irl things at the moment and for my main and (pretty much) only fandom to get hit as hard as this; it's going to be pretty horrible.
But as ever we're all going through this together. I have hugs for all of you if you need them and we'll all be fine if we keep going.
So, yeah. Those are my thoughts. Now i'm going to eat a plate of garlic bread whilst my parents sing drunkenly to Barry White downstairs. What is my life?
xoxo
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Date: 2013-03-23 07:51 pm (UTC)I am so glad that none of us are alone in this; the support from everyone makes it all so much easier.
It wasn't the happiest start to our fandom journey, but the tough times are what will make us all closer and stronger (more cheese anyone?)
I'm glad we're in this together, and with all of the lovely people in this fandom, i think we'll all be okay in the end :)
(omg Dan and Phil must be messes right now :/)
<3 (thanks again for being lovely)
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Date: 2013-03-23 08:13 pm (UTC)That might be one reason why this is such a lovely, supportive fandom. It's not the first time the band (and thus the fans, too) has seen hard times. Closer and stronger, indeed <3 (maybe a small piece of Gruyere cheese, thanks)
(They'll be okay, too. Surrounded by friends at Playlist Live *nodnod*)
<3 thanks for letting me ramble like that in your space and being lovely in return. *hugses*