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apparentopposite After a day of eating my feelings and trying to put off the inevitable, i decided to make this post. I know a lot of you guys have already made posts about this, but i just couldn't bring myself to read them all, so i apologise if i basically repeat what you've said.
The saddest thing about all of this i think, is that we kind of all knew that MCR were going to end, or at least go on hiatus for a while. But (idk about you guys, but at least i felt that) no one was really expecting this. I thought that Gerard was going to focus on comic books for a while, Frank and Dewees were doing Death Spells, Mikey was (hopefully) going to sort his relationships out and Ray was going to carry on being a social enigma (srsly, he never tells us what he's doing). I know they are all doing those things and i'm happy for them, but to know that they're *never* going to be a band again. It's just depressing. (Also as someone who has never seen them live, i am particularly saddened by this). And i am aware they could reunite in 10 years, but it won't be the same.
I've been worrying about the fandom all day. I know that you guys will still continue to be in this fandom, (or at least i hope you will) the FOB hiatus has shown me how persistently fannish you all are. :) But i can't help but feel like after a month or two some of you won't want to be here anymore. And this scares me more than you know; i just got here. After two years i finally plucked up the courage to talk to all of you lovely people, and i don't want that to go to waste.
This news will most likely hit my creativity hard in terms of writing, but i haven't been writing much anyway, so it's pretty much a moot point. I'm just not ready for this; for such a change in fandom. I'm still struggling through irl things at the moment and for my main and (pretty much) only fandom to get hit as hard as this; it's going to be pretty horrible.
But as ever we're all going through this together. I have hugs for all of you if you need them and we'll all be fine if we keep going.
So, yeah. Those are my thoughts. Now i'm going to eat a plate of garlic bread whilst my parents sing drunkenly to Barry White downstairs. What is my life?
xoxo
The saddest thing about all of this i think, is that we kind of all knew that MCR were going to end, or at least go on hiatus for a while. But (idk about you guys, but at least i felt that) no one was really expecting this. I thought that Gerard was going to focus on comic books for a while, Frank and Dewees were doing Death Spells, Mikey was (hopefully) going to sort his relationships out and Ray was going to carry on being a social enigma (srsly, he never tells us what he's doing). I know they are all doing those things and i'm happy for them, but to know that they're *never* going to be a band again. It's just depressing. (Also as someone who has never seen them live, i am particularly saddened by this). And i am aware they could reunite in 10 years, but it won't be the same.
I've been worrying about the fandom all day. I know that you guys will still continue to be in this fandom, (or at least i hope you will) the FOB hiatus has shown me how persistently fannish you all are. :) But i can't help but feel like after a month or two some of you won't want to be here anymore. And this scares me more than you know; i just got here. After two years i finally plucked up the courage to talk to all of you lovely people, and i don't want that to go to waste.
This news will most likely hit my creativity hard in terms of writing, but i haven't been writing much anyway, so it's pretty much a moot point. I'm just not ready for this; for such a change in fandom. I'm still struggling through irl things at the moment and for my main and (pretty much) only fandom to get hit as hard as this; it's going to be pretty horrible.
But as ever we're all going through this together. I have hugs for all of you if you need them and we'll all be fine if we keep going.
So, yeah. Those are my thoughts. Now i'm going to eat a plate of garlic bread whilst my parents sing drunkenly to Barry White downstairs. What is my life?
xoxo
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Date: 2013-03-23 07:40 pm (UTC)I spent most of my day going through some of these sad posts and commenting on them. So many hugs, and attempts to make sense of things and find the silver linings and promises to carry on. So much love in this fandom.
It is sad and true that inevitably, when something like this happens, some people will move on. But my impression is that a good amount of people will stick around and still be awesome and keep running and creating and interacting. And new people will find their way here, too, via FOB and such. It's worth sticking around. And I still have a lot of unfinished business with this band in the form of a 'verse I started working on over a year ago (my first fic project, nothing posted so far, might take me another couple years to get to that point, I'm slow). So yeah.
I'm still a relative newb wrt connecting to people on here, but I'm so glad I took the plunge (so good to not be alone with all these feelings), and as I wrote way up there at the beginning of my ramble, I'm so glad you did, too. ♥ (maybe not the welcome you were going for with the previous post, sorry :-/ A welcome, nonetheless)
*more hugs*
(also, augh, OneFandom...I feel for Dan, poor bb and his inner 14-year old)
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Date: 2013-03-23 07:51 pm (UTC)I am so glad that none of us are alone in this; the support from everyone makes it all so much easier.
It wasn't the happiest start to our fandom journey, but the tough times are what will make us all closer and stronger (more cheese anyone?)
I'm glad we're in this together, and with all of the lovely people in this fandom, i think we'll all be okay in the end :)
(omg Dan and Phil must be messes right now :/)
<3 (thanks again for being lovely)
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Date: 2013-03-23 08:13 pm (UTC)That might be one reason why this is such a lovely, supportive fandom. It's not the first time the band (and thus the fans, too) has seen hard times. Closer and stronger, indeed <3 (maybe a small piece of Gruyere cheese, thanks)
(They'll be okay, too. Surrounded by friends at Playlist Live *nodnod*)
<3 thanks for letting me ramble like that in your space and being lovely in return. *hugses*
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Date: 2013-03-23 11:56 pm (UTC)In some ways I'm more worried about the fandom than the band, I haven't been in it for long and I finally felt like I found something like a home. I like writing MCR as much as I like their music and I was really, really happy that I got myself together and connected with other writers/fans.
I hope that things move on in way that keeps us together, I don't want this to end. I mean, it's bandom not just MCR even though it feels like the center from where I'm standing.
It will be ok somehow *hugs*
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Date: 2013-03-23 11:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-24 11:29 pm (UTC)In all truth, I am not worried about the fandom. Will there be people who'll leave Bandom? Yes. Does that mean tthat the fandom will die? No, not at all. All the members are (mostly) active in one way or another. And I think they have too much history not to interact with each other.
{{Hugs}}
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Date: 2013-03-25 11:59 pm (UTC)And i think we all hope they'll reunite or do something else together eventually.
*hugs you back* :)
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Date: 2013-03-25 04:26 pm (UTC)And I thin most of us will stick around. I know I'm gonna. The fandom is still an inspiring place for me and I have yet to talk you into any silliness. ;)
♥ ♥ ♥
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Date: 2013-03-26 12:03 am (UTC)And i'm really glad you're going to stay around; without your podfic on my iPod i would get a lot less sleep <3
Silliness? I am looking forward to it ;) <3