A New Start

[apparentopposite]

I've been a Bandom lurker for almost 2 years (I'm sure I've broken some sort of record) and I've decided to change that now. For a long time I've watched people write brilliant stories and make amazing art/podfic etc. and I've been scared. Scared to join in and face the prospect of being less talented than everyone else or not fitting in. I know that it's pretty stupid, but it’s how I've felt for a long time, and I still feel like that; but I've decided not to be an idiot anymore and just try.

I've been suffering from perpetual writer’s block for a long time, even longer than I've been aware of Bandom or fandom in general. Every time I attempt to create something; I look at it, see it as something stupid and never finish it. I’m trying to fight this, but it may take me a while.

About 6 months ago, I tried to escape this rut by doing art for bandombigbang 2012, using a previous account. I did finish the art (it was for Make It Loud by brooklinegirl ) and it got a surprisingly lovely response, but it somehow didn't stop the block I've been in.

So now, after all of this time watching Bandom from afar, I've decided to get off my backside and do something. I've made new LJ and DW accounts with the new username that I've been using on my Tumblr and Twitter for a while. Here, I will (hopefully) post fic and possibly art and generally get more involved with fandom things.
It probably won’t be very good for a while as I've not done a lot of writing/drawing for a LONG while, but please bare with me whilst I get on my feet.

There are a lot of people in Bandom who I like and admire, but I've never really talked to anyone, so if you want to say hi; please feel free. It would make my day.

Anyway; I think that’s all I have to say. So… yeah.

Comments

[sylvaine]

Hi! Always nice to see someone brave their way out of lurkerdom. :) (speaking from experience, you're highly unlikely to regret it! ^^)

And hey, you're not the only one feeling insecure about their art ("art" in the broadest sense possible here). Hard not to, really, with all the amazing creators in fandom and particularly in bandom! Hope you can overcome it, though. <3

[apparentopposite]

Hello :) Thanks, and I hope I can too!

[glitteryv]

Many props to you for delurking. I know how big of a step that was for you (I lurked in my previous fandom for about 2 - 3 years before I started leaving comments and even, omg!, talking to people.)

Bandom peeps are a lovely bunch. Very friendly too. FWIW, many of us have the same anxieties about talking to people we don't know or haven't interacted with, OK?

Here's hoping we get to see some of your fanworks, yeah? I'll totes be cheering you on. :D!

(BTW, I do remember your lovely art for brooklinegirl's BBB. It was very sweet. ^_^)

[apparentopposite]

Thanks, i feel very reassured :)

I'll hopefully get something started in the next few days. And \0/ thanks! I was so worried about that art, but everyone was so nice about it.

[turps]

Hi.

Stepping out from the shadows is always hard, so I'm giving you all the kudos for doing so.

I hope you have a lot of fun in the fandom.

[apparentopposite]

Hi. Thank you and i hope i will too.

[greedy_dancer]

Hi! Welcome to unlurking! Don't be scared, I promise there are many lovely people around here :))

[apparentopposite]

Hey :) This post alone has proven that already, everyone is so nice! \o/

[anotherslashfan]

Hi :) If you're looking to meet more bandom people at DW, have you checked out the recent Meet and Greet Meme at the_neverenders?

And I get being blocked artistically, I struggled with it for years, too...

[apparentopposite]

Hey :) I saw it when it was posted, but hadn't had time until today to check it out. Thanks though :D

And it's really reassuring to know that others have struggled and gotten over creative block. It's sort of a social thing as well for me, but i'm trying to get over those things with the help of fandom ^_^